Beat that, Victoria's Secret

Well, okay. So, Victoria's Secret probably could beat that, but I still think they are hot. And look at that cute little areola, just peeking out to say, "Hi" in the last one. Maybe you'll get actual nipple next time. :-)

As you can see I was in a rather generous (and I don't mean my breasts) mood tonight. I just got a whole bunch of new bras....okay, so I got three, and you see two here, but still. I was so enamored, especially of the red one, that I just decided I had to take pictures of them! And hence the little fashion show of breasts right there. Did you guys even NOTICE the bras?

I actually got pretty turned on by the whole process. I hadn't felt much like taking pictures in a long, long, long time and so suddenly I'm kind of feeling frisky. Randy. Horny. (Insert word here). Pretty sure I'm going to go play with my clit as soon as I'm done writing this. No, you can't have pictures of that. Although, you can always dream that in the near future I'll feel extra frisky and will get a few pictures out to you.

Had a weird day last week...Naughty logged on about an hour after I'd written my blog post last week. Weirdly enough, that was the only time in the last four months that I hadn't called him a swear word, so maybe that says something. Or, I suppose he just wasn't scared of me anymore. Still not sure how I feel about the whole thing. It was a little surreal, mostly because it was just small-talk. We talked about television shows and Barack Obama.

..... *crickets*

Pretty much my reaction too. My curiosity was piqued, because I found the whole thing weird, and just sort of odd timing. My friends of course threw out any number of possibilities as to why he would suddenly come online after four months (or at least be online so that I could see him), some more sinister than others, but I don't even know that I want to think about it at the moment. I think I'm just at the point of, if he contacts me again, he does and I'll just deal with anything as it comes. Isn't that all I can do anyway?

Okay, I'm off to masturbate, because damn it, I'm horny as hell. But that is what happens this time of the month. I don't know why, I just get insanely horny all the time. Plus, the lingerie show turned me on even more accidentally. :-)

Giving up on 2009

I had a very nice email froma fan of the blog a couple days ago, hoping and asking for more posts from me, and more pictures too. Well, I do like to try and oblige, so here is one that I don't believe I have posted before. It isn't new, but it is a pretty good one:

Just a little spanking one there. You can see the red mark I know from the paddle I have. Ouch!

As far as posts...well, I have many thoughts that have been running through my head about what to post, but none of them have been particularly sexy and I feel like I owe you guys some sexiness. I just haven't been feeling my sexy self. I'm definitely not saying I won't be, but I'm sort of thining of redesigning a little, maybe re-focusing a little on just the day to day. It will be probably awhile before I'm back to regular posting--although that is at least partially due to the fact that now that I've graduated, I've enter my prep course for the Bar Exam! Ewwwww! Everyday this week for 6 hours a day, just in class, and starting next week it will be about everyday about six hours with class and regular study time everyday. Seriously, ew.

Now, what else have I been up to? Well, I have decided that as far as my experiences with the male half of the population 2009 is a wash. yeah, only six months in and I'm quite over the men of my life. Well, my dad, brother, and nephew are still okay, but the rest of them close to me? Yep, total idiots.

We of course have the Naughty debacle (which I think I have even been able to half decide had its benefits, even the breakup part cause he just wasn't the guy for me), but then...my best guy friend managed to disappoint me and really sort of break my heart at graduation. He told me he was coming to my graduation party...and then didn't show up. Now, I don't mind if someone decides not to come to my party, but to say THAT MORNING that you'll be there? And then not only didn't he call to say he couldn't make it, but he didn't call me for two days until after he had asked half a dozen people if I'd been upset. I'm still actually really hurt by it, even though he's apologized a number of times and said he'd make it up to me. I think at this point he thinks he's off the hook since he has talked to me about it.

I'm also about ready to give up on Ingrid too. I refuse to bring up the mess that is still going on with her not-really-boyfriend, who really isn't her boyfriend, but who is still acting up. Something new has happened, but she said she won't tell me for a couple weeks until she gets back from her trip. Fine, as long as it isn't something death-worthy I can't really be bothered. Also, she said something interesting to me that really upset me when we were out one night. She was drunk, and was talking about one of our friens and how he said that there are people who have been "here" (which is low, in life) and then people who have been "way down here" (which represents a low that no one else could even imagine) and that Ingrid has been "way down here." But in between her explaining what the "way down here" was and her saying that he had told her she had been there, she turns to me and says, "And by the way, you haven't been down here," meaning at the lowest level. Now, I do know her shit. I know that she has certainly had some low moments, but frankly I don't talk about much of anything having to do with me. I mean, part of that is cause she can seriously talk and I'm more of a listener, but that she presumed to tell me that I could have never been where she's been? I nearly left her right there I was so offended that she would presume that. I don't feel the need to talk excessively about every low moment of my life, because I just have no real desire to relive my lowest moments and I don't think they are anyone's business--even my best friends. Paige and Laney lived through some of them, so they do know, but I'm pretty quiet about most of my life. Ingrid doesn't even know a quarter of what I felt about the Naughty thing.

I'm just in a bit of a funk really about my friends. The Ingrid thing happened weeks ago and it still really upsets me, and so does the thing with Kaj (that's who didn't show up) even though that was almost two weeks ago now too. Now I'm totally wary of even dealing with Kaj or relying on him for anything at all, and I'm not in nearly as much contact with Ingrid as usual. I'm sort of feeling like going into my hole.

Plus I'm PMSing, so you know it's an extra good week. :-)

I know, not sexy at all, but you're going to have to just deal with the picture for now! :-)