Moving Forward...Slowly

Well, one full week has come and gone following the Naughty debacle (I prefer that to referring to any sort of breaking-up: such an ugly turn of phrase). Am I still a bit down about the whole thing? Yeah, definitely. Yesterday was particularly crap-tastic, since it was one week since, and because it was a Monday--which really just makes all other things worse, frankly.

Funnily enough, last night I also had a dream about Naughty. In the dream, we got married (I have had three or four dreams about that PS--and the weddings themselves are always a little crazy and never go quite perfectly) and were living together after. It was the wedding and then the few days after or something like that. I was definitely happy about the marriage in the dream, although I was annoyed at how things weren't going according to plan (makes sense--I'm a bit of a perfectionist in my normal life too, why not in my dream life?).

I logged on this morning to MSN.com and what is the first thing that catches my eye? "Weird Dream? See what it means!" Turns out that getting married (and being happy about it) in a dream indicates something really good is going to happen soon to you, possibly even a marriage. Dreaming about an ex-lover? It could be 1) they are thinking about you extensively and sending telepathic wavelengths your way, and/or 2) you have unresolved questions about the lover and nothing was completely resolved.

Christ. Really? Ya think? I told Ingrid about it and she said, "Well of COURSE you still have unanswered questions and things that aren't resolved!!! Hell, I have about a hundred questions I want to ask him myself!" I won't lie, I do wish he was longing for me at the moment, but I'm putting a lot more stock in the second one than the first. If for no other reason than my sanity.

So, I'm looking forward to something really good happening soon. :-)

Again, I have to give big dollops of thanks to everyone out there who has been helpful for the last week-plus. The guys who wrote me nice notes about how awesome and sexy I am, and The Naughty One who has been a total rock and was super awesome this weekend looking at different kinds of porn that we are both interested in on XTube from across the state lines (it's a very weird variation on guy fantasies that, I would imagine--of course, I have cyber threesomed with her a few times, so this is pretty normal for us I would guess). And, inadvertently the following two bloggers have helped me get some general perspective, even without knowing they were helping--so thanks to PixiePie (that particular entry--especially the first couple paragraphs--really gave me some good perspective) and David (TNO sent me that link--and it is good not only for me right now, but for life in general I think). Ingrid and my cousin Cake have also been super helpful, because even though I am not willing to hate they know how to hate just enough for me to make me laugh with the shit they come up with. :-)

I didn't think I would ever think this, but frankly the distance between us makes this whole thing just way easier on me. I never have to worry about seeing him as long as I don't give into looking at any pictures of his that I have (and I have yet to do that).

I am still in MEGA-horny mode though. Holy crap. Yesterday is the only day out of the last five where I haven't been just itching to frig myself silly. The Naughty One is partially to blame, because we share some kinks and so we were looking them up on Xtube the other day and I got so completely turned on the whole time! I kept telling her, "Geez! I have got to cum soon!" I wasn't even playing with myself either. I waited until after I got offline and then came my brains out for awhile. So delicious.

Normally it takes a two or three weeks for one of my batteries on my favorite toy (a little pocket rocket that only takes one battery) to go out, depending on how often I am playing with myself, but I seriously destroyed that thing this weekend. I put a new one in on Wednesday I think and it is getting towards dead mode now. You know I love creampie videos...just imagining the guy cumming so deep inside of my pussy and it leaking all out.

*shudder* I have to stop talking about it. I watched them this afternoon too, and it was just delicious. There was this one guy that made videos of him cumming inside of a woman, and he really gets vocal when he cums...and let me tell you, that drives me right over the edge when I hear a really vocal guy getting off. Oh wow. I mean, there is nothing better than hearing a guy cum while seeing him cum. I love seeing the guys cumming inside when their cocks are just far enough out of the woman's pussy that you see his cock pulsing over and over while he cums.

Damn, kills me.